Somethings you see accidently but wish you didn't.

Do you ever feel... Like you shouldn't be looking at something? Then as a result you feel so SO horrible and sick after seeing it? Well I just saw something that made me feel that way... I was super bored and so started exploring other blogs. I just kept hitting that *Next Blog>>* button at the top. After skipping all the creepy cat & dog lover blogs, I came to one that I simply just couldn't turn my eyes from... My stomach started feeling turning and I got those prickle things that go up your spine and make the back of your hair stick up? My blood was definitely moving. Once I saw the first picture, I became hooked. I couldn't close the window, (webpage) nor could I stop exploring the blog. Even now I've been trying to keep my mind from wandering back to those images..........='(.......    You know IT'S CRUEL TO TAKE PICTURES OF FOOD!! ESPECIALLY DESERT! Cookies, Cupcakes, french pastries... =d  You can see how delicious they look but no way of partaking ...such a injustice lol Those pictures made it all the worse. (I forgot my lunch for work again.... I'm starving..)

 I can't control my stomach/mind...

 Food or even looking at food can become so addicting... I understand why The Words Of Wisdom talk about "eat meat sparingly" and so forth. That's tough in it's self-I mean even looking at diets..THAT food especially looks good, just because you know your Mom (or Sister) won't let you touch/look at and the absolute worst... Not get to EAT ANY OF IT!

My friend Brady and I talked about this a long while back haha Yeah, you don't get to eat quite as much while on a diet.. BUT what you do eat looks so scrumptious. Bowl of salad, full of yummy vegetables like, lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, bell peppers of different colors, sprinkles/bits of chicken or beef and that dressing drizzled all over it. ( Zesty Italian)  OR the meat! I wish I ate meat everyday, even if you already eat a lot of meat- Just looking at food makes you more hungry. The Shake diets even attract the eye of certain investigators of interest. (ME) You know those shake diets? Where they have different flavors (cookies n cream, fruity smoothie like) or the soup shake. (Taco soup is the one I tried and that was tasty.) that kind of diet looks good too! Except for the green drink. I think everyone holds a gag at the sight of one of those.. Yuck! Just eat grass, same thing. 
For the most part they have a schedule or list of what you can eat. For a teenage boy that is important or else you start experimenting with food... like smashed potato and corn beef  mixed on a frying pan, with sprinkles of taco seasoning on top. I've used water instead of milk for dipping my Oreo s in once upon a time..... haha My dad has one that I won't even touch in thought. He makes peanut butter and pickle sandwiches. =S
If you've seen 17 again? that pretty much sums it all up. "I'm hungry.. All the time!" as he's sitting on the counter with food everywhere and spraying a can of cheese whiz in in his mouth. YUP... life of a Teenage boy is sooooooo hard sometimes.

Ambition of speaking.

I think it's funny, that I would like to be a great speaker. Especially since I sometimes get scared right to... Red Jello.  Although I have found, once I started speaking for a bit, I'm able to solidify myself enough to enjoy it; immensely. I just love that feeling of being the only one speaking, knowing that everyone else is hanging on to your every word.

 At school when we first started having Orals, I would get all nervous standing up there in front of everyone else... I'd talk all squishy and jumbled...  or I would talk all quiet to the point of the listeners having a tough time hearing.

 I would usually get a 3.5 out of 5... I've always admired my brother on how well he did at public speaking. I aimed to be better, but just couldn't figure out how to draw people in... (Lucky for me) 

At about half way through my High-school life, there was this girl, her name was Kathryn Jensen. I remember when she gave a speech about a cookie and school life, and not withholding that cookie from kids. (I think the cookie represented education?)
I remember the feeling of energy that swelled in me. (A little about my feelings of cookies..  I LOVE THEM! Withholding a cookie is an evil act of war!) I don't remember much of her speech .. in fact right after she gave it I had already forgotten what she had said.. I even turned to my friend Taylor and asked what he thought about her speech? He said he liked it A LOT! Then I asked him (knowing that it would probably make me feel tons better) what was her speech was about? He couldn't answer. Hahaha It's funny that I remember it being so good but not remembering what it was about, besides the cookie part...? She did speak with a confident and a enthusiastic voice....
 Even though I didn't remember it fully... I'm a guy =) the feeling stuck with me. If I needed power in my speech then all I had to do was think about Kathryn's cookie story... BOOM! Instant sugar rush- Thus POWER! It's probably a guy thing.. along the lines of of the old lazy dog that won't get up to chase a darn cat? But putting a steak in front of him they gain a crazy amount of energy begging for the juicy (almost seemingly free) hunk of meat.

This Is So Me.

So... I'm super embarrassed.... the main reason why I stopped posting was that.... I lost MY PASSWORD-ish-ish type of thing... Yeah. =( haha.. And basically I simply forgot about my blog.. lol I'm pretty sure it's been like 3 years since I had last posted but lately I've been wanting to express myself? Most people have talents of Musically inclined, Artistic, Theatrical, Pure Genius at modern technology (video editing/Cp programing.. ect..). Sure I might be apt to the previously mentioned, however not to the point of being myself? So I'll open the can of beans and share with you, (whom ever you are) all about who I am. 

I'm Robert Fitzgerald Henke!

Okay here's a tug of the ear... I'm a bit lazy. Not that I don't work, in fact when I do work I'm a pure Cowboy To-boot! It's more along the line of myself getting.. Oh I don't know, distracted?  Like most days right before I go to bed I tell myself. "Robert! Quit robbing your amazing youth. I mean it, a boy of your quality isn't to be wasted away of day dreams and.. *ugh hum..* video games/movies/series. It's as bad as" "sin on Sunday" 

Usually when I start feeling like that.. It's because I had just talked to some SUPER IMMORTAL being 

spending every minute of their day towards, Dreams, Education and plenty more. Sure I've been able to accomplish a few things- I received my Eagle Scout award, (YE-AH! MAN) Graduated at one of the tipsy top(s) of my small private school.

I always feel like people don't really know me..? Which is probably true, because I don't understand myself  most of the time... What I do Know (You're going to have to take my word on this.) I'M ONE COOL GUY and sometimes pretty slick... depending what we're doing of course.

You might get the impression that I'm a quiet/shy guy but I can talk your ear off, once I get use to you. So be careful. The shyness is mostly out of not wanting to do something unrepresentable or I'm afraid of getting to rowdy.

Another thing to know is that if you talk gangsta/wangtsa to me... I shut off. I literally can't think of something to say back. I think that's more of a.. Public Schooled/ modern child of 2000 thing. I'm not that child. My ideal look/attitude (When I'm not acting goofy) would be one of those guys you see in the old movies like.. My Fair Lady. Wearing a Tux/Suit and  Waltzing with a beautiful lady-YEP that's my kind of thing! 

One of my favorite things to do is to act extreme MACHO-ness in front of my siblings (For your knowledge I don't even act like this with my guy friends.) I just do it mainly in front of my sisters because it makes them laugh. I love making them feel good either by my own blunders or silliness, if I can make them laugh then I don't care. I love my sisters so much! When I get either a compliment from one of them or a "Robert, you crack me up" I feel like I am complementing my life with sugar and spice. Pure joy. (If I act like that in front of you, feel honored' It's a rarity.)

 I'm also all about appearances. I like things to be perfect. Example: I always have to have the date planned out to the T (When, where, what time it takes to get to each place.) before, I ask the girl. Even then.. I usually go scout out the route the day before the date. Sometimes I wish I could put that insane planning into my every day life. Sigh.. like my bedroom. I'm one of those people who has a pile for everything and knows what exactly is in each of the piles. It works...! To some degree... but doesn't look as good as a tidy room.